I smiled,
I waited,
I was circumspect;
O never, never, never write that I
missed life or loving.
In the last two years I have experienced:
- Three surgeries; leg, wrist, and an appendectomy yesterday
- A broken thumb and two broken toes – yeah, I dinged a toe again last week
- Stitches in a thumb and calf
- The continued chaos that is Cisco
- Acceptance that Lance probably doped
- Moving from the Cleaver house to a beaver lodge
- A personal investment typhoon
- Love American Style
- Much less time with my boys
- And, the loss of my mom
I have always believed that Chaos = Opportunity; this period of upheaval has had its opportunities. In many ways this has been the happiest time of my life. Life rages in me.
I know Todd much better. I know what is important to me. For the first time, in a long time, I have real goals. Pursuing the Tri-life has renewed my faith in the value of hard work and dedication. Coach Alex McDonald has helped me focus. And, I have been able to develop many close and long-lasting friendships.
It may be Karma or luck, but somehow because of, or despite the upheaval, I am circumspect about happiness.
In high school, I either broke a bone or tore ligaments in my legs/ankles three consecutive years. After the third time I was leaving the orthopedic office angry, frustrated, dejected, and exasperated. Throwing my crutches to the ground, I looked to the sky, raised my arms and shouted “why me? WHY ME???”. Imagine my shock when a deep booming Heston-like voice reverberated from the clouds. “There’s just something about you that pisses me off”.
Seriously. Hang in there friend. Stuff happens. More often to people like you that are living their lives to the fullest.